SETTLE

It felt like i was jacked up on epinephrine
my blood was gushing through me
i had a new keenness in my vision and smell
my skin turned rough and callused
I became immune to pain

i begin to study my body and find a plethora of hair on my arms
i felt the need to eat
i wanted more of everything
was this the inner beast in me?

SIT

my back hurt. the only way i could endure the pain was if i hunched over.
the pores in my body ached. it felt like they were opening.
my nails felt as if they were growing rapidly. i felt like i could see it happening.
articulation became hard as if i were still a young child.
i wanted to strip
i felt the testosterone running through me
the thought of hiking or living outside struck me
i wanted to run
the feeling of the inner beast within us all.....